September 15, 2006

  • Nightmares Part III

    I think I may be more stressed out than I thought.  I don’t feel stressed, and I work very well under pressure.  In fact, I do my best work under pressure, and I thrive on it.  But apparently, all the stuff in my life right now is causing me stress.  My dentist told me that I cracked a filling last month because I grind my teeth at night.  Teeth grinding is a sign of stress, and I never used to do it before. 

    And now, I’m having nightmares all the time.  Last night’s dream was nothing compared to two nights ago, so I wasn’t at all panicky when I woke up.  But it still wasn’t good.

    Its a few days before my wedding, and one of the executives here wants to invite herself.  I somehow can’t say no, and before I know it, her entire family is invited to my wedding (ex husband, and 2 kids).  I’m collecting all of the names of the people who are coming, and it turns out to be over 110 people, which is way over what I had budgeted for.  Luckily my venue makes all of the accommodations. 

    My venue, is no longer my venue.  My wedding is now taking place in a very large conference room – one of those conference centers in a hotel.  There is a podium and a large screen in the front of the room.  Somehow, I am sitting with the executive with her family.  At first things are OK, but then her ex-husband starts asking me questions on the mike.  I am drunk in my dream so I can barely understand him. 

    Then I realize that my family is not there.  Not a single one of them.  I start panicking and wondering where they are.  I go outside of the conference room to find them.  They are not there.  They have already missed the ceremony because its reception time.  I walk back into the conference room, and there is absolutely no music playing.  People look so bored.  So I scream out “can we get some music in here!!?”  Really cheesy music starts playing and I start dancing.  A few people join me, but half heartedly.

    Finally, my entire family walks in 2 hours late.  The dinner has already been served, and there are may 15 people left at the wedding.  Everyone had left because it was so boring. 

    This is when I wake up.  To be honest, I am terrified that no one will have fun at my wedding.  I still haven’t picked song lists for the DJ and I know everyone has a totally different taste in music.  I don’t want anyone thinking that my wedding was boring. 

    I don’t know why I am having these nightmares all of the sudden, because I really haven’t done any planning this week.  Maybe its the guilt of not doing anything…..hmmmm.

    Either way, tonight, I am hoping that I have a good dream.  I don’t think I can take anymore drama in my head. 

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